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Caregiving, Friendship and a Good Death

Bill and I had not heard that our friend Barbara was in hospice and close to death.  We learned of her passing from another friend who makes a habit of studying the obituaries every Sunday.  Despite her long-standing heart condition, I had expected Barbara to live for many more years.  After all, her mother had survived past 100.  Barbara had been her mother’s long-distance caregiver for several years.

We attended Barbara’s Memorial Service a few days before Christmas.  While the snow fell softly outside the chapel windows, Barbara’s children, grandchildren, friends and loved ones sang and played, recited poetry and shared memories of Barbara and her multifaceted life.  It had been a journey of exploration and connection.  We were struck by how many of her friends and associates had met Barbara unexpectedly on a …

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November Holidays and Alzheimer’s

 

B-24 Liberator

Veteran’s Day and Thanksgiving are the November holidays.  Many people see Veteran’s day as an extra day off or just another workday. Thanksgiving is about overeating and football, and the real holiday event is shopping on Black Friday.

This year, the November holidays are blending into memories.    This was triggered by an email we got from a regular reader.  She wants us to record memories and voices of Alzheimer’s people.    Audrey and Frank, Carol and Judi’s parents, both had dementia, but not Alzheimer’s.  Bernie, Audrey’s second husband, did have Alzheimer’s.  We weren’t direct caregivers but we saw the terrible progression of his disease.

Bernie was a WWII Veteran of the Eighth Air Force which had the highest casualty rate of any U. S. Army unit in the war.  He was …

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“What If’s” and “If Only’s” in the Aftermath of Caregiving

Recently one of our readers wrote to us about some of his feelings following the death of his mother.  “I am overwhelmed with guilt for not always being a good caregiver – giving in to work stressors, tiredness, other concerns,” he said.  “…I go over every detail of caregiving and find the things I believe I did and didn’t do.  It is sad as I wanted to do the best for my Mom, but I feel I failed her.”

We’ve talked to a lot of caregivers who feel the same as our reader.  Years after his mother’s death, one friend who had spent a couple of hours every day after work with her at her assisted living residence confesses that he feels he didn’t do enough.  Now, when Judi, Bill and I look back …

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Changes

 

Canyon Country

"Where are you from? Where are you going?"

Colorado Blue Columbines, Utah, 2011

 

In My Life

There are places I remember

All my life though some have changed

Some forever not for better

With lovers and friends I still can recall

Some are dead and some are living

In my life I’ve loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers

There is no one compares with you

In my life I love you more

From Lennon/McCartney

My motorcycle riding buddy and good friend just had a total knee replacement. He also has had a coronary bypass and has stenosis in his neck. I have a knee replacement and arthritis in my left hand and thumb and in my other knee.

I have never …

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Revisiting the Crocodile: A Caregiver Sums Up

You never know how a death is going to take you until it happens. Even so, I think it is normal to try to prepare by looking ahead–especially during a long good-bye like my father’s.

We can find so much information on grief and mourning that researching the subject almost gets in the way.  After my mother’s death I had a particularly hard time getting past what I’d learned I “should” feel to what I actually was feeling.  In the early days after Dad died, I felt stunned.  Encountering Death and losing Dad left me disoriented and at loose ends.

I needed structure and some way to understand my life now, post caregiving and orphaned.   Three weeks after Dad died, I had this helpful dream:  I walk down a hill to the edge of …

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